Today is the 7th of January. I kept dreading this day from December and somehow for the most part of today, I did not realize it was the 7th till G-Supi shared a message from Mama who wanted us to know she was thinking about you. I was crushed for not realizing what day it was and yet I was relieved that I had survived part of the day after all. Of course now that I am aware that the 7th I was dreading is in fact today, the sadness washes over me like I was standing beneath one of those wooden drums at the water park that tips when it overflows. I know I am not alone in this profound sense of loss because you are loved by so many and your loss is personal for many others. When I watch the shows where characters go back in time, I wish for that world because I have specific time zones I would like to go back to. I remember you fondly practically everyday, but this date, the 7th is one I wish I could skip because memories from this day are heartbreaking and crippling. Yet, I can’t afford to skip this day because while the other days I remember you are for me, you have claimed this day and as hard as it is, I will remember it for you. And when this dreaded day has passed, I hope to see you back in my dreams, when I can relish in the ignorant bliss that my brother is here with me.... for the moment. While I clearly hogged this message, know that we all miss you dearly. May you continue to Rest In Peace😍😍